Life

 I really hope Lance gets the job and we get to move to Tennessee. I'm done trying to be a friend to people who seem to care less.

I've never been so confused in my life.

Like anybody but Lindsey reads these anymore....
We decided to come down to my parents house tonight and we'll be here til Christmas morning.
Monday we might possibly be getting a room at a hotel so we can take the girls swimming and allow time for my parents and aunt & uncle to have a night without the munchkins or give them the opportunity to swim also.
I am really not looking forward to christmas eve there's already enough drama going on already and it's just building up.
I have sisters but we're still growing up and we're getting closer, I don't understand why grown adults have so many issues and can be so stuck up. They're all in competition with one another and they don't care who they hurt along the way. Ok I'm not going to get started.

  One more week til Christmas Eve. This year the party's at my parents' house and my aunt & uncle from Hawaii are coming in. Also along with my aunts & uncles from Arizona and Virginia. So it's gonna be big. I think it will be the first christmas since I've been alive that they'll all be together. I think it's because they're all worried about my grandparents and are thinking this might be one of their last xmas's. Kind of depressing but I guess that's life. I'm looking forward to Christmas morning though when we come back to our place and Kiley opens all her presents. It's her first Christmas where she can kinda understand what's going on and appreciate her presents a little more.

  On another note, Lance is done with school for this semester and we have a lot of free time because his internship is ending too. So we were hoping maybe we could get some of you people to drive up here and see our place, drink, and play some games.

2008
January- We decided to move so Lance could start school at Delta but I was preganant with Chloe so we wanted to stay close to family so we moved to Deckerville (his hometown) I absolutely hated it there. I don't get along with any of his friends and all it caused was more drama with stupid exes of his. I was miserable and stuck in the middle of nowhere. Good thing I did get along with his sister and cousins.
April- On the 13th Chloe was born in Bad Axe. She was 20 in and 6.9 lbs.
June- We celebrated our 2nd Anniversary. Lance started school at Delta and shortly after we knew it was time to move closer to his school, the gas prices going up was killing us.
August- We finally found where we are now. A nice 3 bedroom apt. in Saginaw, not too far from Frankenmuth and Birch Run.

Right now I'm looking for a part time job to get out for a while and make some extra cash. Chloe is almost 6 months old and Kiley will be 2 next month.

 It's been forever since I've posted but I'm just so frustrated right now and I need to vent somewhere. 
It's crazy how you think you can really know and trust someone. You spend every day and night together you tell each other everything and you make promises you're sure neither one will break, and yet one night after two years he does something he promised he would never do again, and you begin to wonder what else he has done or is capable of doing. All in that moment everything is lost. Than he goes on to pretend like everything is okay, when you both know things will never be the same. 
I'm sure you're all thinking it's something like he cheated on me, but it's not like that at all. It just feels so much worse.

We moved last Sunday to a town called Deckerville. I'm sure whoever reads this doesn't know where that is but it's in the thumb area. We got a cute little apartment paying less than half the rent we were paying in Harrison Twp. We plan on hopefully getting a dodge durango before Chloe is born, we'll just have to wait and see how that goes. Lance is working 7 days a week down in Warren and it sucks because he's gone 14 hours out of the day and than basically has to go to sleep when he gets home. It'll be a lot different though when he starts school. I already miss all my friends and can't wait for you to come visit. :)

 So it looks as though we will be moving again. Which basically sucks because I love this place and we just got it how we want it. Now I have to go back and repaint all the walls white and pack everything. I guess I have to look at the plus side which is Lance is going to be going to school and eventually getting a really good job and my dream home is becoming more of a reality. It's just going to take time and sacrifice before it happens. I'm going to be moving to a town where I don't know anyone other than Lance's old friends and they really aren't the type of people we want to be around anymore. You tend to grow up faster when you get married and have kids. But I'll be far away from all my friends and family. It's going to be a big change and I don't have much time to say goodbye. We're moving as soon as December, which means before Christmas.

 On a better note today is Kiley's first birthday. I can't believe how time flies. It seems we only left the hospital a couple weeks ago. By the way, thanks to everyone who came to the party it was a good turn out. And Kiley loves all her presents.

Again it's been a while since I've written anything on here. So I'm just going to update on what's been going on in my life. 
Tomorrow is Kiley's first Halloween. She's being a lady bug and I can't wait. I will admit I am being a little selfish and using her to get some candy because she obviously can't eat it yet having only two teeth. I'm not sure where were going yet so if you have any ideas let me know. 
For those  of you that don't know I'm pregnant again and due in April. If we have a boy we're naming him Tristan Matthew, but if we have a girl we're still trying to figure out a name. This is the last kid though, and hopefully it's not twins :)
Kiley's birthday party is the 17th. I got her the cutest dress and matching shoes and I can't wait to show her off. If you're coming and don't know what to get I suggest toys because I have a feeling the family will be getting her clothes (like she doesn't have enough already). 
I haven't made much time for hanging out with friends. But I promise I will make it up to you soon. Especially after this party and I can relax a little. 
Things with Lance are still good, and I would hope so being married and all. Right now he's looking into going to school so we can find a job farther away. Not that we want to leave our friends behind but to get out of the city and away from all the traffic. 
I, myself am thinking about looking for a seasonal job just to be able to afford gifts for everyone at Christmas time, so if you know anywhere hiring please let me know. 
Hmm... I guess that's about it for now.

So i was just thinking i havent written in here in like forever. things are going really well. Lance just started his new job at pepsi and kiley's growing like a weed. we're just  a couple weeks away from our first anniversary and i cant wait.. we're spending a night at frankenmuth with a horse drawn carriage ride and plenty of champagne. in other news i will hopefully be getting my car in feb. a dodge caliber, woohoo! no more neon for me. i'll definitely be having people over this weekend because lance will be working and ill need something to keep me entertained. besides i miss my friends. well thats it for now. peace out.

so i havent updated in forever as you can tell my userpic is still a picture of Kiley in my tummy, and she is now 3 months old. things have been going pretty well for me, things are great between me and lance and we couldn't of asked for a better baby. my friends are amazing and have helped out a lot and i dont know what i would do without them in my life. that goes out to each and everyone of you and you know who you are :)

now i just wanted to get something out there for everyone to know, there's a lot of people out there who doubt my marriage with lance.they believe it is going to fail by basing our marriage on statistics. there were even some who didn't believe we would make it this far, and it really bothers me that this society believes that way today. we are in love and i know in my heart he is the only one who can truly make me happy and i would not change one thing about him or our rough past because it only made us that much stronger. we may be young and we may have a lot of obstacles to overcome but i believe we'll make it through it all and if you have a problem with that i suggest you dont waste your time worrying about us and move on to more important things.

The worst part about being pregnant is the anticipation that builds up knowing the baby could come at any time. I am not a patient person and the waiting is really getting to me. I wish they could just tell me exactly when the baby is going to come instead of saying that it could be anytime now. Grr! Oh Well. There's not much else going on right now. I was just bored and thought I'd write something random in here.

So tomorrow night Mattie, Alan, and Theresa are going to Lance's parents house with us for a bonfire. I'm actually looking forward to spending some time away with friends because I never do anything anymore and once Kiley is born I'll be doing even less. Woo! we might even be going to a high school football game and that's definitely something I haven't done in like 2 or 3 years. Either way this weekend should be worthwhile. If anybody else is interested in joining just let me know and I'm sure something can be arranged.

Hmm.. so right now I'm trying to plan some games and stuff to play at the baby shower. If you have any suggestions please let me know. Ahh! It's crazy to think about but anytime in the next 2 months I'm going to become a mom. I mean who would of thought? 
If anybody is thinking about getting an account at National City, DON'T! They will take your money for whatever they want, and not give you a statement to show where it's all going. So if anybody knows of a decent bank that won't screw me over please be sure to let me know.

Well for those of you who don't know, I'm going to be having a girl. Only a little bit less than 3 months away. 

Things at our new place are going well... except for the fact that there was a shooting at the 7-11 that is right outside our bedroom window. 

We're thinking about having a BBQ this weekend just depends on who else wants to come. It'll kinda be like a housewarming party. But it's still up in the air. 

My baby shower is probably going to be at the clubhouse where I live on Saturday, October 7th. We're doing the baby's room with the theme of under the sea... basically the Little Mermaid.

 So we're gonna be moving into our place probably next Friday and with me being pregnant and all we're gonna need a little extra help with moving. SO if you're interested in being a good friend and helping out, please let me know.

Lance and I OWN our own place now. :-)

Ahh! Only 3 more months until the baby is due. We hopefully find out what it is the 23rd of this month, since that was the soonest I was able to make an appointment. Things have been going well with the married life. Though not so good with my bro and his gf. She's talking about moving back to Japan and taking my niece with her which means we'll never see Ashley again and my child will never be able to meet his/her cousin :*( I'll let you girls know when the baby shower is ;-) and as soon as I know youll know what the baby is going to be. Well that's all for now. Laterz!